Reach

Look, I want nothing more to be loved and to love. Why does that seem so difficult. Maybe I am really not loving myself properly.
While I sit here and wonder... what this all means and why you're here. It seems like another direct reflection of the inner workings of the cosmos in the sky. Venus sitting just beside Neptune in the darkness just before the sun rises. What mysteries are lying there but a love so far out of reach is it hard to distinguish if it is an illusion... or if it is real. So perhaps someday soon the sun will shine the light on this dance so that we may finally see. As much as she holds on to the path it is starting to suffocate her...
She barely leaves her apartment but just practice her yoga and dance. She feels so far away from all those that she loves.
She really just wants a warm embrace. With her lack of faith, the road crumbles and she slips and falls. Falls away. She reaches out but even then she is not sure if this fall is a blessing.

Swirling

Here they are again rippling
Expansion outwards
As the resonating flow goes through me
I Dance whether it be a painful moment or not
The moment I realize all the illusions
There exists only the same ripples
I am emitting energy waves
And here is the center.
While there exists many of the same centers
throughout infinite time and space
Contortions of reality fall and one sees
Everything is the center
While there may not be a place of no where to perceive
Is it not the same place where dreams are born?
I know there is a place
Where I can go to leave it all behind
In the end finding that the same illusions that are repeated
on and on
One will realize they have no choice
but to let it slip away into that impermanent sea
eternity

My dreams keep dreaming it
they also seep with nightmares
intermingling
al the things that were said all in order to hurt me
why
Have I hurt myself?
Have I been the monster
How did I create this
I must be quite powerful

Let's see how far we can take this
I can create a world as long as this one is destroyed
I surely will pervade
I know I cannot stop
As much as I would like to give up
I rather torture myself with my own ego
its own subjective experiences
its illusions of a deteriorating road

Do what thou Wilt shall be the whole of the Law

The Thelemic law of Aleister Crowley himself. It is one's own true will.
It is instinct. Go with your initial instincts even if one's own judgment appears to be negative. Dissect it, be just, and silently turn away.

Love increases as judgement decreases. Sometimes the simplest of rules are the hardest to follow. "Judge not and ye shall not be judged." Why? One very good reason is that criticism in any negative form weakens you. The world is founded on love, so naturally its opposite will alienate a person as well as restrict one's energy. This occurs when you criticize others as well as when you criticize yourself. Your body is connected with all things and can feel the criticism as it comes in and as it goes out. Try it yourself. Feel the difference? The idea here is to appreciate and praise more. You then, because of the third principle, will attract more love into your life and, because of this principle, you will maintain health and strength.



I wanted to touch base on these concepts because I been focusing on this a lot lately. THe perception has been brought up in my mind from interelating with people and listening to what they say about others and themselves.

I have been well aware of the fact that when you judge someone you judge yourself. So, whenever I criticize someone I think about what That means to me and how I see myself.

I had an experience lately with someone. THey are a self proclaimed messiah... and they often judge others a lot negatively... but they are very narcissistic. (Do not drink their kool aid). I been reflecting and wondering how that person is a perception of myself. I was largely disturbed for days because of this.

I know that we should never focus on how not to be... because that's directing your focus into how you are actually going to be. The universe knows no difference... so we must always focus on positive things and how we want to be and how we want to see others.

Negative energy is necessary and inevitable in our reality though.

This is why I have been in a process of developing a scientific inquisitive mind so to speak. I am always dismantling my own thoughts and those of others... especially those that are negative. This negative process is a growth form... in that never ending spiral configuration.

This following passage is very beautiful and quite synonymous with some of the concepts I have read in the book called the Spell of the sensuous;

Everything is alive, aware and responsive. Yes, everything. Perhaps we don't notice the movement of a rock or hear the voices of trees and plants, but they have levels of awareness as do we humans. If we see everything as energy and connected, this corollary can "come to life." In my shamanic workshops I help people communicate with the elements, as they not only have much to tell us, but can help facilitate healing as well.

Many cultures find sacred the plants, animals, power spots, wind, and other elements of their respective areas. When you can work with Nature instead of seeing it as separate, a whole new awareness of life and love can unfold. Take a few moments today or tomorrow and talk with a tree, or listen to the wind, or notice any animals that appear during the day. You may be surprised at what you will learn.

(sorry for lack of source)

This is why I would spend so much time in the trails and the woods. Sit quietly and listen to what they say and you'd be truly amazed of the epiphanies that would flood in once you open up.

Nothing Seams to be

Nothing can be as it seems
Once a seam seems to be
A glimpse transfixed in time
Repeating forever
It is only but an illusion
Nothing stranger than a concept of nothing
Zero
Emptiness vast and free
Eternity
Creation is only a dream
As it may be
A drifting reoccurring memory

Hello and goodbye

A flood of memories rushed through me
How I used to make u squeeze my finger with your paw
How you used to sleep in baskets peacefully
Your silly curiosity with bags and boxes
How you rather drink from the faucet and I'd leave the water running for you
you peacefully purring in the sunlight

I hope and pray to the universe that you are not in any pain
I hope that you rather die peacefully in your own home
You will return to home and be with me forever

I'll always love you.
We are one..
together forever

you're the greatest gift I've ever had.

Ancient eyes

One day it was just after dawn
I seen you just outside my doorstep
Your big ancient eyes still young in that moment
Holding secrets that I will once bestow
These gifts we had to share
Two young spirits
I had to go about my day
not wanting to let you go
My mother said you will be there when I return
I seen you watch me go as we rounded the bend
Perhaps it was then when our friendship began
Or maybe it was something eternal that I could not understand
I was sure you came from a vision
I think it was something that was forever
You, so strong and vibrant
Agile and fast
The energy of a true warrior

Sometimes I had vision of us in another world
During my dark times where I knew love only through you
I know there it was always you and I
and when the sun would set
we would battle the darkness until he risen once again
I protected you

Again the sun will rise and its radiant beams would shine down upon us
I seen a glimmer in your warm soft black coat
Like sparkling diamonds in the night sky
We would visit your favorite places
Bring back your favorite mint leaves
become one with the earth in the dirt
Then I would laugh at your silly escapades

But now the sun sets again.. I fear this time you will not arise from the darkness
Eternity waits for us both but this time I will have to meet you there
I hate to see you in pain my friend
You're a sweet soft gentle creature
and always my best friend forever.

I'll remember the day when we peered into each others eyes
Those ancient eyes
that glimmer will continue to do so in my eyes
Your home is my heart and spirit




I promise I will move mountains for you... until the day we are reunited.
Nothing will stand in my way.

Ophiuchus Article

Here is an article I wrote for Northeastern Illinois University's newspaper. I had to revise it since it was too long unfortunately... I wish I had the original. The editor said it was left with fragments... anyway I have faith any fool can still make sense of it without having to fill any blanks. Especially if you have done your homework. Anyway it was never published (screw you), but oh well enjoy. :)

For thousands of years the archaic night skies influenced man in their discoveries. Whether it be navigational purposes or perhaps just a symbol of hope far off in the distance, it is something that has been apart of our culture. It seems that astronomer Parke Kunkle finds it valid to include a new zodiac symbol. After thousands of years of the same system used by astrologers why is it that an astronomer thinks to change the system?

Astrology is coined by Carl Jung to be a language of synchronicity. It is a symbolic way to understand the facets of life on our planet. Kepler, to paraphrase, said the music of the spheres are perceived by the intellect. It is coincided with fractals. Chaos theory demonstrates the interconnectedness of the universe. It is balancing of free will and destiny. It appears as a mathematical model of self-similarity proportions that is infinite. The fibonacci sequence and the golden ratio are examples. They are found everywhere in nature such as motions of waves, flowers, trees, etc. Evidently being a process of unfolding and becoming. Astrology is said to be the algebra of life.

The axis tilt of the earth’s wobble has shifted and this is said to be the reason for the constellation of Ophiuchus. Due to the moons gravitational pull we have here what is called the precession.

The reason why this does not matter is because the zodiac was divided up into twelve constellations that lie upon the plane of ecliptic. The plane of ecliptic is the sun’s path that forms in our sky as the earth rotates around the sun. Now the problem with Ophiuchus is that it is not aligned within the ecliptic plane like the other twelve zodiac signs. The constellation of Ophiuchus barely touches this plane of ecliptic with just his foot. The bablyonians recognized eighteen constellations at one point, but five of them were omitted once the constellation borders were more clearly defined.

One purpose of astrology was to divide the sun cycles up into equal portions and seasons. The zodiac perfectly aligns with each of the four equinoxes and solstices. The twelve zodiac signs are equally divided up by thirty degrees along the ecliptic plane. A circle is made up of 360 degrees and when divided up by thirty there’s a number of twelve, which are represented by fixed constellations. When the zodiac was made it was used as an astronomical mathematical unit to understanding the planets and the stars corresponding to the annual circuit of the sun. Astrologers saw it as a way to understand what was going on our planet by observing the cycles of the bodies along the ecliptic plane, which assisted them in following the seasons.

It seems as though that this whole 13^th zodiac sign is a publicity stunt. Astrologers will continue using the traditional model. Many astrologers seem to think that it is another attempt at giving astrology the label of a pseudo-science. From our understanding of quantum mechanics such as wave and particle experiments, the ebb and flow of energy in the universe, and viewing its interconnectedness helps us to see that maybe some scientists have yet to shift some paradigms. Is it simply that people want us to lose our ability to predict and see patterns in life by understanding this cosmic fractal universe?

www.geocosmic.org

Space between the clouds

Early civilizations grew based upon agricultural stability. As soon as humans were able to establish a way to farm and build irrigation systems was whence civilizations first came to be.

Then we see wealth being established by the humans who were the closest to water and canals. The ones who began employing laborers to sustain irrigation systems. These "managers" were our first kings. As population grew, the more they depended upon these irrigation systems.

Now, many of our past civilizations are still buried beneath the earth. (Perhaps, soon our civilization shall be buried as well).

The rise and fall of our civilizations has been a necessary evolutionary force of our very universe. Everything comes to being and then grows in order to die and be replaced by a new creation. Whether it be individual organisms or large forms of group think building and sustaining structuralism.

How can one keep building on top of another without things becoming chaotic? It is necessary to clear space... to start fresh and anew.

This interaction can be seen everywhere in the universe. The slums, cities, our egos, nuclear fission, supernovae, etc etc

Now here we all are within a large group think. Globalization has been inevitable since the creation of technology and information systems.

Where we decide to go from here implies partially on the individual. I can easily say it is entirely dependent upon the individual actually. Now is the time to clear that space within ourselves. So that a new beautiful structural system can be deployed.

The spiral configuration is a very important configuration indeed. As long as we learn we have the ability to repeat the same processes but better and grandeur each time. Evolution is a slow process but also inevitable and necessary for own growth of being.